It’s been a while since I’ve been on here; it’s also been a little over a year since I started this blog. I want to say not much has changed for me but that would be a lie. However, it may also be a bit of the truth as well.
It’s a lie because I remember at this time last year, I would have never wanted to work full-time for a corporation nor would I have believed myself to actually commit to moving away from home. But here I am working my 40 hours and living over 300 miles from my home. Never would I ever have imagined that I’d be so far away from the people that raised, that brought me up and molded me to be who I am today. Yet here I am, so far away yet so close; not just from those that I have loved for years, but also from those that I will soon come to feel that same for.
Now here’s how it’s true that things haven’t changed. I still hold many of my same values and traditions. Martial arts, fitness, and philosophy as still at the forefront of my passions and convictions. My goal is always going to be founding and developing my own career path and perhaps pave the way for others. My personal circle is still composed of the same people. I still believe what I believe and dream of what I’ve always dreamed of. I am still me.
But I am also not me; I’ve grown older, a little bolder and a little warmer. I’ve learned more about myself and what I am and where I want to go. Over the year, I’ve made a lot of mistakes and had a lot of failures and hiccups but I’ve also learned from them and will continue to do so regardless of whether or not that is seen as a good thing.
One year. It doesn’t seem like a long time and really, a year ago I wouldn’t have thought anything of it. But looking back, I realize that this is probably one of the few things I’ve actually been able to stick with. I’ve failed to commit to maintaining a physical journal, I’ve failed at several lines of work, I’ve failed at relationships with others. I’ve been unable to commit to so much for any more than maybe a few months. One year seems like a lifetime for me now. But even then, I’ve had slips and lapses. I can’t say I won’t have more down the line because I am beginning to understand myself better. Though I will say that I am working on it and that one day I’ll be who I want to be.
So cheers to one year for me and this blog and the journey that I’ve committed to; may it never end.